Letting go

Letting go can be very tricky,very hard to deal with.. and most of the time it's a fight you got to face on your own. If you are lucky and you have the right people by your side you will be able to overcome what is that tortures you,other times you might find yourself in a world of your own for many reasons,either you don't want to open up about your problem or you think that nobody can understand you.
At this point you may ask..how can i let go? Let go of what hurts me,of what i secretly don't want to forget?Well here comes the serious and complicated stage of what i like to call it <<state of one's happiness>> I constantly seem to talk about happiness and how to achieve it and that is because i have been through numerous of bad situations and i finally figure out that indeed happiness is a state of mind , is something that you choose,something that you have to work hard everyday,it won't come to you free handed. Back to our main subject for this post. How to let go of what hurts you. Well personally i would suggest the following
1) Find the problem-the cause,define what is it exactly that you can't let go. Is it a person?Is it a memory? If it is a memory the only think i can assure you for a fact (at least based on my experience) is that it will eventually go away after a long period of time,it will drift apart while you are out and about,while your life changes because it will change nothing stays the same forever.
2)Are you willing to try and move forward or do you plainly complain about your pain without taking any actions ? You are a mess i know but it is intrinsic to let go,let go only if you want to. Otherwise by pushing yourself you won't get anything out of it,only hurt nothing more.Don't feel sad about how you feel or how much you've cried over and over again about this. Remind yourself constantly that everything happens for a reason and it is better to have experiences like this one,those setbacks will construct your new and powerful self.
3) Congratulations now you are in the final step or as i call it, <<the acceptance stage>>. You have awareness of what is going on and what is it that you really want to let go . On this stage you gonna have to talk with yourself for several hours. Analyze every single thing and see the advantages and the drawbacks you gained from this experience because that is what everything is ,an experience to make you stronger and open up your mind about everything.
A memory has the power that you fid it with. Even if the only thing that you want to do right know is sitting down and crying for days or eat your feeling in a vast box of chocolates you can't change the unchangeable fact.Time never ceases,it will continue even if you don't want it because your everyday routine eventually will change and you will change to,the only difference is that when you really want to let go you will achieve happiness earlier . If you are still struggling you may have to fight for just a little bit longer,but in the end you will survive and you will be you again . A new fierce and potent you!

Random thoughts(Music)

I'm sitting in a chair at my piano teachers house . I'm waiting for my time to play . I arrived early as usual , i always like to be on time . There's an old man playing ''besame moucho''. He plays with difficulty and slowly which reminds me of myself when i first started to play.
It's funny how amazing music can make you feel . It's a different world , a strange connection to a magical place . It also reminds me of an incident that occur a few days ago.I was in the bus and a lady probably in her 50s was sitting across from me . She was staring outside the window and when we passed throught a big building which seemed to me like a corporation,she started to smile widely which made me question what crossed her mind at that moment . What ever it was,for a strange reason,it made me think about music.

One year ago it was my first piano lesson ever with the person who changed me completly . She is by far the best teacher i ever had . Typically me , being nervous for my piano exams next saturday , i panicked and she said the most beautiful things about my progression that i've ever heard . Music is my life . I play for a total of 3 and a half years in particular 1 year with a teacher . And i managed to be ready for a diploma. I feel so proud about myself and i believe in me for the first time . I know that i usually write posts about other stuff but i just wanted to post this one . To remember this specific day and how happy i feel and proud about myself . And even though people can't understand my craze about music , i'm overflowing with hapiness . My hero, my savior,my whole life, my everything, the one thing i know for fact it won't betray me and it'll always be here to ease the pain.

Forever Young?

It's a typical wednesday night full of liabilites. I decided to take a break. I was scrolling through tumblr when i came across a post talking about the melancholia of growing up.
No one can deny it,time passes by extremely fast,it's not something you can control.. you will grow up.. you will die..
Ever since i was a little kid i used to find myself in a perpetual fear about death with my mom always standing by my side reassuring me that everything is going to be okay. I can't explain why but i guess we all feel a little bit scared sometimes mainly about how many time we've left,how many minutes,hours,days until we die.Perhaps my biggest fear isn't death but the thought of not staying forever young...
They say '' nothing ventured,nothing gained''.I personally haven't figure out how to be spontaneous and careless but i try to do so everyday. By thinking negatively i only exacerbate the situation. But those few seconds that your heart is pounding really fast by the fear of the unknown,the inevitable end,oh they frighten me so much. You try to alleviate the pain by restricting your mind.  Consequently you cry  then you perk up. Because life is beautiful. Even though youth seems to be like a fairytale it wouldn't make sense if changes didn't occur. Life would be boring and miserable, there wouldn't be any progress or spiritual growth..
Therefore you should try to be a better person every single day,to appreciate what you have and to gave to those in need. Don't stress out about work and every once in a while venture into something...travel the whole world on a whim with your loved ones..say the things you want to say .. and always be proud of yourself.

Loneliness vs Solitude

I was always fascinated by the way human brain is constructed. Although i'm a sports science student,i've attended a lot of psychology classes and i'm actually thinking on doing my master in counselling maybe even clinical psychology. You should've figure it out by my previous posts that i really like to get deep into conversations with my self and to philosophize everything.
Today the weather is melancholic.. it's raining and as a typical 21st century ''hipster'' i decided to drink my coffee in my balcony while reading a book . In this particular book the author talked about loneliness vs solitude. Even though i'm a lonely soul and in love with the idea of spending time with my self,i've never thought the meaning behind those two words.
So i did a little research on the internet. Turns out loneliness is a state were your brain things negatively about basically every aspect of your life. You feel alone,hopeless even if you're surrounded by people. It's that feeling where you wanna scream in a big crowd but you feel that no one is paying attention and no one is able to hear your pain.
On the other hand solitude refers to a more positive attitude. A springboard to greater self-awareness, a state where an individual is happy to be alone,thinking and arranging everything. I like to contend with the idea that essentially solitude leads to creativity. I've wrote somewhere in a previous post that the greatest composers composed their symphonies under a negatively state of thinking. That was before i realize that they actually might be under a solitude state .
What i've learned today is that loneliness is not the same as solitude. Loneliness can be the beginning but solitude will be and  must be the final destination. Sometimes we all need a little time alone to think,recharge and start again. So everytime you see someone walking in the park alone or sitting alone at a table for two, do not judge or criticize them . They're in a solitude state of mind and you should be too.

Friends

Life has the habit of surprising us all the time. No matter who you are or where you're from,in your lifetime,you're gonna meet people that will change your life completely.
Among the back stabbing friendships that i had in my life so far, i was lucky enough to find true friendship that fed with love every bit of sadness in me. True happiness,laughter,overflows when you're with those special people and you cannot compare those gifted momentos with anything else in the world. You have a strange connection with them;you don't have to pretend to be someone else because they already know who you truly are and they don't care. They love everything about you even your flaws,even the things that you hate about your self;they are actually able to help you learn how to embrace your uniqueness because they love every crack of you. Everything you do in your daily life reminds you of them and sometimes you may find yourself laughing for no particular reason by just remembering something stupid that you did together or by seeing videos and photos of your adventures. And don't try to deny the fact that sometimes when you're in a different group of people you say by accident your inside jokes and nobody gets them because they are not them .
Deep down i know that i don't have the need to write about them especially here but life is too short and it never comes easy or as we want it to be. So i wanna dedicate this special post to them... the ones who made me realise that life is really important and no matter how many times you fail you gotta get up and try again. For sure life isn't easy but everything gets better when you have your friends by your side,when you know that you have someone special who will be there for you no matter what. Even if a friendship like this one get lost in the course of time i will forever remember the adventures and the absolute happiness that flooded me every second i was with them. And even if we lose touch completely i'll forever know that no one and i mean NO ONE is gonna make me so happy as they did.
Friends..they are your second family.. they are your whole life.. treat them well and never leave their side. They are much more important to you then you think.

Chase dreams

 

It's been a long time since i wrote a post here . For the past couple of months i had to deal with a lot of stuff.. Both silly and serious complications.. So it got me thinking about life .Tbh i was in my philosophical mood again tonight ...
Everything i've been through changed me . It changed the way i see life and the way i think about basically everything . It got me thinking a lot about time .. How fast it goes by. I remember when i was younger what my grandma used to say to me:'' Life is too short. Life is really really short.Live in the present,forget yesterday and make small plans for tomorrow.'' I wasn't able to understand what she was talking about. I was around 7-8 years old and still in school . Back then time seemed passing by so slow but now i sense it... Life is indeed very short. So we have to let go of our negative thoughts,we have to give up feeling hopeless everyday and start thinking about making our dreams come true. Otherwise one day we will wake up and feel regret for the opportunities we threw away . To give up your dreams is the worst mistake a human can do. Chase your dreams even if at the end you didn't make it . It's better to chase after a dream then to live a 'safe', normal, boring life .